“The ultimate truth of who you are is not ‘I am this’ or ‘I am that’…but I am.”
I explored in Full Potential Part 1 the prospect of calling down miracles, parting the veil, and realizing the blessings the scriptures promise in their fullness and entirety. Seems a stretch to many – okay most – perhaps even “crossing the line” or “looking beyond the mark.”
It’s the stuff reserved for the NEXT life, right?
A well-meaning religious leader of mine, a knowledgable man whom I knew loved and respected me, called me into his office and warned me against looking beyond the mark. I had too many questions he couldn’t answer, deep questions of great spiritual import – or so I thought at the time. I would not revisit those questions for at least a decade after his gentle chastisement, fearing that if I did, I would be going beyond the bounds of what was religiously “allowed.”
That was almost 20 years ago. Now I don’t just “think” – but I KNOW – they were of massive eternal significance to me personally. I have had them answered since then, through diligent personal study and my mile-wide spiritual stubborn streak. Because I wasn’t getting answers that were sitting right with me, I went straight to the Source. Figured the answers could be found therein…and I was not disappointed. I have since learned The Master Teacher never turns away a starving student.
He IS “the mark”…and I was not looking beyond Him those 20 years ago, but had my eyes fixed steadfastly upon Him, humbly searching. No person (however much religious seniority they held over me), no institution, no program and no earthly organization could hold Him back from answering my honest questions. Which is why I love Him – and His plan for getting answers -so much.
I bring this up because we often feel alone in our searches; insignificant and “off the mark.” Insignificance, I’ve decided, is actually one of my core issues. I sometimes think I came with it.
M. Catherine Thomas addresses this “insignificance” in the essay I referenced in Part 1:
“The problem lay in my unconscious weak definitions of myself. I realized that if we were to ask the Lord to describe Himself, He would give us a list of powerful self-definitions, of I AM’s, that He had lived into: Truth, Love, Mercy, Power. We, on the other hand, have a lot of “I AM’s” in our heads that do not serve us. Listening to self-definitions that are disempowering and unforgiving of self creates a particular reality, a shrinking into our fears. How is it we so often get in our own way? How do we get out of our way?… Consider the weak “I AM’s” in the scriptural accounts of Moses in contrast to the Lord’s: Moses responds to the Lord’s invitation to deliver a provocative message to Pharoah: “Who am I, that I should go unto Pharaoh and bring forth the children of Israel out of Egypt?” He asks, Who should he say sent him? The Lord answers cryptically and powerfully, “I AM THAT I AM…. I AM hath sent me unto you.” (Exodus 3:14). This is a Being who has no weak definitions of Himself…”
“Sooner or later we realize that the time has come to find greater spiritual power, to own our divinity, and to live with greater confidence — with boldness…The Apostle Paul encourages us to the same thing. “Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace that we may … find grace to help in time of need” (Hebrews 4).””He exhorts us to have “boldness to enter into the holiest by the blood of Jesus” (Hebrews 10)….This confidence begins in our thoughts, in the way we use our mind. We are highly potentiated beings who may have excused ourselves for not being who we really are.” “I AM has power.”
I have far to go in overcoming the weak definitions I have of myself. I am starting to learn, as I mentioned in Part 1, that having weak definitions of the self is NOT humility. Who we really are does not lie in our fears or insecurities, it lies in the love, light and truth we were created with. Yes, we must have a deep recognition of our powerlessness without Jesus, but powerlessness is not insigificance. Powerlessness is a state of deep reliance; the Sacred Station of Surrender.
The ultimate truth of who we really are is found in the I AM. We are co-creators with the Master of the Universe; the maker of heaven and earth. And we only discover the Truth of our identities – and of our very existence – by going straight to Him, and only Him. It’s a sacred and personal process.
And He will never turn away an honest seeker.