Ok, so you know how I talked in my “mother earth is shifting” post about being in the most amazing conference (Ignite Your Spark) a few weeks ago and how I “love-love-LOVED” the way it streamed passion and exuberance into my being? How it lit me up?
What I didn’t mention is that I was at a very low point – a big ol’ woe-is-me lull – for several days just prior to that event. My business, my health, my weight, my personal worth, my role as a mom, a wife…everything female. I’m not always super transparent about my struggles, but let’s just say that February to early March were feeling scary.
Not a “life is meaningless and I have no purpose” scary, but the kind of scary where you have so much yearning in your heart to do good and just feel like you lack the wherewithal to put it in motion. Like you wonder if you have the strength to be as much as you want to be and live from the point of authenticity and freedom that your soul is really craving.
Like you needed someone – anyone! – to give you permission to stop playing small and start fulfilling the full and stately measure of your creation.
Honestly, I feel that a big part of feminine authenticity and purpose is being surrounded by beauty. Not materialistic vanities, just the beautiful things of the Earth. Surroundings you can create with intention and love. For me, that includes a nice-sized beautiful home to inspire myself and my family, and those who need nurturance and joy within those walls. Prior to that conference, I was feeling bugged – triggered- by my uninspiring home. A little red brick box – built over 50 years ago- that can barely fit our family of five and dog. It’s got creaks and cracks and orange shag basement carpet and 70’s cupboards…argh! We knew when we moved in it would only be temporary, but STILL…feeling bugged nonetheless.
Creating beauty with intention and love – as it relates to feminine authenticity – must involve our physical bodies. As women, our image and carriage and visual attractivness is so very much a part of our life missions. Our physical form and confidence are the walking advertisements for our beliefs about our own sacredness and value. The way I’ve been feeling about my house is almost exactly how I was feeling about my physical body. I felt more like a neglected rental rather than a temple. Needing some invigoration, some motivation, some nurturance. Some Divine assistance.
This isn’t our house, BTW…:)
I’m done whining about what I’m lacking, and that really wasn’t the point of this post, anyway. This post is about what I’m going to claim. Because I wanted beauty within and around me, I took that desire to God and claimed it as a righteous one – shortly after I left that conference. The blessings and opportunities that have come into my Sacred Station since then have been a challenge to keep up with!
I’d settle for this as my second home…:)
As of 3 days ago, I’ve taken on two new coaches – one for my business/purpose and the other for my body/health. Both, I feel, will help me create more beauty and value for those I love and serve, as well as more abundance. I am blessed that my Creator placed them on my path and look forward to taking the next 3 months to be coached rather than just to coach.
I am soooooooooo excited! I’ll be updating on how this “semi-extreme home makeover” plays out.